Ren Gill - Dear God

[Intro]
G
Hello
Em
Uh, it’s Ren
Bm
I dont really know how to start this letter…

Fuck it

[Verse]
G
Is this life really what it seems
Em
‘cause latley I’ve been in this place between awake and dreams
Bm
I know I only reach out to you when I’m feeling blue

I promise im not using you

I’m just confused

I’ve got some questions I would like some answers to
G
Like is there meaning to this state of short existence?
Em
My existential thoughts sure hope there are cause I’m resistant
Bm
to thinking that there won’t be something better in the distance
N.C.
and God is there and afterlife where pain is non existent
G
If your up there God do you sit upon a throne?
Em
Or a you a humble soul wearing sandals and tattered clothes?
Bm
Do you mingle with the people like an equal

then on Sundays just kick back and chill and put your feet up?
G
Did i really choose this life that I’m living now?
Em
Will my sins be forgiven if I speak them out?
Bm
I won’t lie to you God if there is a heaven,
N.C.
I really hope I get there cause for real it sounds like heaven

[Chorus]
G Em
Reading passed the lines
Bm
I just let go
Bm
Searching for prophets

my faith it is paper thin
G Em
So many questions in my mind
Bm
They replay like an echo
Bm
they never stop, my messiah is porcelain

[Verse]
G
Dear God

Why do people kill each other in your name?
Em
Is it really what you want or have we lost our way?
Bm
Cause it seems like religion can cause division

or people living in prisons of moral values they’re given
G
What is right and what is wrong?
Em
am I a sinner if i don’t comply with everything that Moses said

or is that dumb?
Bm
And why do people disguise hatred in your name
N.C.
homophobia, a history of violent wars, and causing pain
G
High priests in their towers stacking riches
Em
Women burnt at the stake called witches
Bm
In the name of God, Allah, Zeus, Jesus

people claiming lives justified by your alligance
G
I think it’s more complex than good versus evil
Em
I think that there’s both darkness and light inside people
Bm
and through different eyes a man called a terrorist
N.C.
could be a freedom fighter if he’s fighting for the side you’re with

[Chorus]
G Em
Reading passed the lines
Bm
I just let go
Bm
Searching for prophets

my faith it is paper thin
G Em
So many questions in my mind
Bm
They replay like an echo
Bm
they never stop my, messiah is porcelain

[Verse]
G
So is it ignorant to claim that we know what you want?
Em
And if I fast for the sabbath, is that what you want?
Bm
Or is tradition just superstition,

religion a human vision just crafted out of peoples ambition, listen
G
I knew a girl that lost a baby before it was born
Em
What is the purpose of that God,

what is it for?
Bm
Why did my best friends die

before i hit 25,

is it cause there is something better in the afterlife?

[Outro]
G
God, I’ve been feeling suicidal lately
Em
Mental health is worsening,

feels like it might break me
Bm
If you’re watching, you know that I’ve been strong

but god how much longer do I have to hold on
G
Please just give me some solace
Em
so that I know you’ve got my back
Bm
Please just give me some relief

God, is that too much to ask?